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The In-Between

 Death.  Death will greet us all one day so why not understand it and embrace it?  In my line of work as a nurse, especially as a hospice nurse now, I come face to face with death weekly if not daily.  And what have I learned from this up close and personal time with death??  That it can be just as beautiful as birth, that lives will be forever changed, and that memories never leave us.   Birth.  As a new nursing student I was delighted to have the opportunity to assist with a birth during my nursing school clinicals.  It was mind blowing.  To watch a women's body change, morphing with each movement of baby and then spring forth this life from her loins is absolutely the most miraculous thing that I have ever seen.  Tears sprung from my eyes watching this young mother give birth to her first child and to think that I was able to be a part of that beautiful moment! So what do we do with our In-Between?  How can we make that just...
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 Do you ever find yourself so bored but so full of energy and at the same time so tired all you want to do is sleep? That's precisely how this girl is feeling today.  I have just started my keto lifestyle and understand that part of my problem could be from adrenal fatigue...but could this stuff hurry up and get fixed.  I don't think that I've felt like an actual human being in quite sometime.  Unless, of course, all of us human beings feel the exact way that I do, and in that case, I am feeling normal.  I find myself wanting to do all of the things and none of the things simultaneously.  
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 Well, here we go again... It's been over 3 years since I started a quasi blog that I was going to use to post all of my wonderful life things.  In those three years I grew a marriage, developed a career, became a short-tempered mom unable to deal with teenage mood swings, developed a huge improvement in my health, let my relationship with my spouse slip, broke an ankle, gained a ton of weight, and became completely consumed with anxiety. When your whole life falls apart...do you run and hide or do you show up and grow up?   I have ultimately come to a conclusion that the ideal life I had planned is no longer the reality I had once envisioned.  Instead, my life is topsy-turvy, upside down, inside out...and thrilling.  I feel more myself than I ever have in my whole life.  I am enjoying my time alone, feeling through my anxiety, working through my problems with cognitive behavioral therapy, and learning to roll with the punches. Life is never going to b...
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A Fresh Start...A New Beginning

Here's to trying my hand at this whole blogging thing once more.  I originally began a blog many many years ago...a very young and naïve woman at the time with little life experience.  Now, as a more mature woman, I look back on previous posts and grimace at the silly little girl thoughts I once had.  I have made decisions in my life that I am not 100% proud of but I know we all have at some point.  I regret none of these decisions as they have shaped me into the woman that I am now.  I am a: * wife * step-mom * sister * daughter * aunt * new exercise enthusiast * learner of all things health related * avid reader * aesthetician/skin care and makeup lover * critical care nurse * Christian but not even close to perfect so don't judge I am sure there are many more things that I am but these are the basics that define me from one day to the next.  I love my life...even the scary not-so-beautiful moments because they too have a part in makin...
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