Well, here we go again...
It's been over 3 years since I started a quasi blog that I was going to use to post all of my wonderful life things. In those three years I grew a marriage, developed a career, became a short-tempered mom unable to deal with teenage mood swings, developed a huge improvement in my health, let my relationship with my spouse slip, broke an ankle, gained a ton of weight, and became completely consumed with anxiety.
When your whole life falls apart...do you run and hide or do you show up and grow up?
I have ultimately come to a conclusion that the ideal life I had planned is no longer the reality I had once envisioned. Instead, my life is topsy-turvy, upside down, inside out...and thrilling. I feel more myself than I ever have in my whole life. I am enjoying my time alone, feeling through my anxiety, working through my problems with cognitive behavioral therapy, and learning to roll with the punches.
Life is never going to be what we think it will. Sure, people have goals and they set out and achieve them but along the way the path curves in a different way, people come in and out of your life, obstacles pop up...it's all in how you approach those situations that makes you who you are and who you will be.
Faith has played a huge roll in my current road to "recovery" shall we say? The story is a tragic one but with a good ending. Why a good ending you may ask? Because I have faith that it will be a good ending. God is for me so who can be against me? For He who is in you is stronger than he who is in the world.
So I ask myself, "Why not start a blog about myself, daily issues, life questions, etc.?" I might as well since it's just going to be me reading it. So here's to my daily or weekly diary entry for anyone to read. It will be raw, it will be unfiltered, it will be 100% me.
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